Taboo

That strange and beautiful day!

how soon it melted into my memories

I can't believe that a few summers have passed

But that touching moment is still untouched by my growth and changing reality

I can still feel the warmth of the body over my skin today when i recall that experience

how every particle of my flesh is stimulated

my body ached with pleasure

While writing about this, I slipped into an unknown world of stupor that knows only love joy and pleasure

A sudden knock on my mind has brought me out to the reality

Oh! forgive me! I wrote about something that is forbidden

I spoke a taboo subject

How can I make penance for the offence made above?

Offence! all because I am a dalit woman!
They say my writing is meant for expressing only pain and suffering

no doubt an integral part of my life and community

But I too have a body and mind!

at times, that makes me dwell in a few experiences of love, lust and pleasure

But they say, I dont have a right to write about pleasure but pain!
All the progressive men and women might condemn me as they do Meenakandasamy 

May all dalit ideologues be worried if I had sex with a dalit man or upper-cast
Feminists may mock 'even these people talk about sexuality'

I have only one question on my mind:
can you digest if I confess that I made love to my beloved woman on that memorable day?